I posed a group project to some friends one day eating lunch a little while back. One that I believe will not make the frontpage of my daily newspaper, mind you, but one I was serious about.
In a half-joking, half-serious tone, I proposed to the group that a series on dating would make for a informative, interesting read.
I offered to use myself as a centerpiece for the project.
In it, we could look at the difficulties that face a 37-year-old single father in the dating world. We could focus on the lack of prospects, the awkwardness of finding someone and building a relationship with someone else.
I had some positive reactions. I had some blank stares.
There are not many options for someone like me.
I could try the online dating thing.
I decided this was not for me, however.
I could hit the bars.
This too, not for me. I have been there, done that, and what I came up with is that someone who is looking for someone else in a bar setting, would probably wind up doing it again. The alcohol breaks down some inhibitions, but it also screws with judgement and reality and makes a mess of things for most people.
I could try church.
No offense, but I have. And what I found was is if I was looking for someone single older than a grrrrl in college, I would have to date someone already drawing social security. Again, I decided that was not for me.
I have met grrrrls. I have seen grrrrls when I go out. But what I found is that most times — in my hometown, mind you — is that these grrrrls have amputated their hearts, their minds and their souls.
It is quite depressing, actually.
So that leaves me here: alone and with no prospects.
No hope.
So I figured...if there was a series in my newspaper, featuring me, maybe, just maybe, I would find someone. They would come out of hiding, come out into the light and I would find them.
But it is not going to happen. I mean, who am I kidding?
So I am drawn to the fact that I am destined to be alone, forever.
After all, who wants to be with a 37-year-old single father?
In this town, I am finding the answer to be: no one.
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I just posted the previous comment and then refreshed the blog to see you had published another entry.
Based on the entry from yesterday, isn't it odd that you would go on about your best friend and how you had given up a relationship to be with her then post an entry about how you can't find someone to be with you? Surely there must have been other reasons for you to let her go.
A little tip, you have to get over your best friend before you can move on. Dating other women will not help you move on any faster it will only cause them pain. It isn't fair to them & it isn't fair to you either. You may be ruining potential lifelong relationships by trying to recover from your pain over her with them.
Be well & best to you and yours.
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